Inspirations

Eight years ago I acquired my sarode. It was a really big deal to me. I had no regular income beside my scholarship but I had a one year old baby. Then I already fell in love with Indian music, the sound of the sitar, the meends (bending), etc... it would take too long to write. I also felt that sarode is my instrument. It seemed so noble and so rude and rough at the same time, I went crazy for it. I imagined the long sustain compared to the oud what I had played for few years from then. So I spent hours by the computer gathering information through the dial-up connection. I had found a company (now it has disappeared) who wear my initials, G&J who had a sarode I was looking for. I was new to emailing in English, so I can imagine how strange was it to read: "I am studying Indian Classical Music under guidance of a disciple of Pandit Ravi Shankar" what means that "please help me, I am serious and Hungarian and will never learn this if you won't help me!" So they got a sarode for me made in Kolkata by Subhash and everybody found it great.
It was and is great (although I have some problems with it by time) but I missed something. I knew that it's not that instrument but I missed the sound of the jawari (special kind of bridge on string instruments in India like sitar what makes that typical dazzling sound). I couldn't really understand the advantages of the skin resonator.  Now I see it differently but then it was a question for me. I searched throughout the internet for stories, pictures, clues about the past of Indian music and the past of the sarode, the myth of the indo-persian plucked rebab. Beside others I watched the short movie about Allauddin Khan where he plays the sursringar for a few sec but the sound was missing! What is that instrument? I also came to know about the Seniyas, heroes of dhrupad era, the ultimate gurus, like Wazir Khan, and the rababiya lineage of Bilas Khan, the famous duel between Jaffar Khan and Nirmal Shah in the early 19th century when the sursringar came to existance. I realized that it had wooden top, jawari bridge, lower tuning and associated with dhrupad. Wow, it must be a very cool stuff - I thought. Why has it extinct?
I searched more, I examined old miniature paintings, read about weird, unfamiliar tunings (Sa, Ga, Pa, sa, re, pa), strange sitting and holding positions. Why was it like that? It made me very curious.
And I also realized that it is extremely hard to get one, at least for me, a noname Hungarian poor student. It is too much.